Sometimes I open my web browser
and type in a close friend’s name on
the off-chance that they didn’t
actually die and are simply taking
refuge in Hawaii or Russia or somewhere
far enough away that while my
frantic typing could locate
them, my desire to see them animated
once more would be outweighed by
my desire to empty my bank
account, get onto a plane to
somewhere, and so drastically shift my
reality that seeing them once
more would make me wish I’d never
met them at all.
Christine M. Hopkins is a Haitian American writer and journalist living in Iowa. She is the editor-in-chief at OUT/CAST, a journal of queer Midwestern writing and art, and also writes about women’s basketball at Swish Appeal. Her poetry and prose have appeared in The Southampton Review, FIVE:2:ONE’s #thesideshow, IOLit, and more.
She tweets @hoptine.