Sometimes I open my web browser

and type in a close friend’s name on

the off-chance that they didn’t

actually die and are simply taking

refuge in Hawaii or Russia or somewhere

far enough away that while my

frantic typing could locate

them, my desire to see them animated

once more would be outweighed by

my desire to empty my bank

account, get onto a plane to

somewhere, and so drastically shift my

reality that seeing them once

more would make me wish I’d never

met them at all.



Christine M. Hopkins is a Haitian American writer and journalist living in Iowa. She is the editor-in-chief at OUT/CAST, a journal of queer Midwestern writing and art, and also writes about women’s basketball at Swish Appeal. Her poetry and prose have appeared in The Southampton Review, FIVE:2:ONE’s #thesideshow, IOLit, and more.

She tweets @hoptine.

November 1, 2018

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